IT'S THE LAST THE OF MARCH. Didn't really do much today. Breakfast at Macs with Chingz in the morning before tuition. And Mr Sany kind of got really angry today because many people (Including the both of us) didn't hand in our work. He said if it isn't on his table by 4 tomorrow, he won't mark it. And as much as I don't want to do it, I don't have much of a choice :'( Haha, disadvantage of having your mom teach at the tuition centre you go to. Met with Jane&Justina for alittle while before heading home. So my afternoon was well spent changing the theme of my tumblr. Haha, it's so pretty now! http://clumsywordsandlionroars.tumblr.com/ And I pasted my polaroids from Sports Day up on my wardrobe too! Sorted all my letters/cards/post-its from 2010 till now. They're all in different zip-lock bags according to the event and year:) Oh, Kelly dropped by just now to pass me my gift :) Thanks bro, I like it a lot. Haha, not much of a productive day. But at least I did something~

Yesterday started out with me forgetting to bring my bottle, missing 2 buses, Having to run 2.5km, and falling down in the process because I decided to act like I'm 5 and star balancing on the curb. Such a great way to start being 15 right? HAHA. But nonetheless, I had a fantastic day, the best since the start of the year actually. Got many gifts, cards, wishes, hugs, one of the cutest bags I've ever seen, the best handmade Lion King t-shirt and probably the most tastiest pandan cake ever created. And to end it all, lunch with Kelly, Justina, and Ching Suen where I got a balloon and a free cup of  lychee sorbet (Thank you Kelly). And thank you everybody else for making my birthday, the best one so far, especially Angela, Vidhya, Heidi, Valerie, Jane, Justina, Ching Suen, Jean, Franky, Sheriann, Krystle and Jacq. Had supper at Swensen's @ Changi Airport with the Michael's because that was one of the only places that has good ice cream and is open at 11.30pm~

“It’s much easier to not know things sometimes. Things change and friends leave. And life doesn’t stop for anybody. I wanted to laugh. Or maybe get mad. Or maybe shrug at how strange everybody was, especially me. I think the idea is that every person has to live for his or her own life and than make the choice to share it with other people. You can’t just sit their and put everybody’s lives ahead of yours and think that counts as love. You just can’t. You have to do things. I’m going to do what I want to do. I’m going to be who I really am. And I’m going to figure out what that is. And we could all sit around and wonder and feel bad about each other and blame a lot of people for what they did or didn’t do or what they didn’t know. I don’t know. I guess there could always be someone to blame. It’s just different. Maybe it’s good to put things in perspective, but sometimes, I think that the only perspective is to really be there. Because it’s okay to feel things. I was really there. And that was enough to make me feel infinite. I feel infinite.”

   

- The Perks of Being a Wallflower

"And then I felt sad because I realized

 that once people are broken in certain

 ways, they can't ever be fixed. And this

 is something nobody ever tells you when

 you are young and it never fails to surprise

 you as you grow older as you see people in

 your life break one by one. You wonder

 when your turn is going to be, or if it's already happened."

Haven't blogged for the past couple of days since teachers have been giving us test after test after test for the past week. So today started off pretty well, because Mr Wu (My favourite teacher as of today) didn't show the school our Geo-Ad video, Haha all that worrying for nothing right Angela? Chinese test went horrible, chances of me passing are like -50. 7 more hours till its 12, I should go do something productive.

What's wrong with me? 

I need to stop letting every single thing affect me. I need to stop getting worried over every little thing. I need to stop being so over-protective. I need to stop thinking so much. I need to stop being so sensitive. I need to stop making a fool out of myself all the time. I need to watch what I say. I need to start treating people right. I need start focusing on my studies. I need to stop getting so distracted. I need to talk to you.

I need to change myself. Before the monster inside me grows and grows. 

OH YAY FIRST WEEK OF TERM 2 IS OVER. So overall, it was a good week. Jacq came over yesterday to use the printer (Haha, not the main reason), but the printer crashed. And now, I have no printer  :'( Had a great talk with her before piano started. 2 new songs, and I'm getting my new books soon! Awards Ceremony was pretty boring today, other than the performances. Went for a good dinner with Naomi. And guys, DON'T. BUY. MEALS. FROM. MOSBURGER. It's so expensive :'(  

JACQ TRYNA' ACT CUTE

“But don’t you think that it’s better to be extremely happy for a short while, even if you lose it, than to be just okay for your whole life?”

I'll love to complain about how boring school was today. And how I have no idea how I managed to stay awake with just 3 hours of sleep. And how the words of Mr Wu keep echoing in my head, " Make sure you walk out of every class learning something new, or else you would have wasted your time." And that's what I need right now. Time. Don't you guys feel everyday is just passing so quickly? It's already the second last week of March. Things need to slow down, or I swear I'll just drown. 

Watched The Lorax with Angela, Sabrina and Vidhya today. It was such a great movie with such great theme songs. Dr Seuss just has a way of catching people's attention through his wild imagination. The movie did have a happy ending, but it was pretty sad in a way because the hidden meaning behind it was on environmentalism and how humans are destroying nature.
It's half past 12 and my thoughts are keeping me awake. Everything in my brain seems to be all over the place. I can imagine all the information and thoughts just all scattered around and tiny people inside my head are trying to sort them out into boxes.

Now let's go back to Wednesday night. Bread Run was great fun. 99.999% of the reason was because I was in the same group as D. It was pretty sad to see all the homeless people sleeping on cardboard boxes and chasing after us to get bread! :( Went back to school for alittle while with Angela on Thursday to pass Mr. Wu our completed video, and that officially marked the end of staying back for Geo-Ad! Whooo~ Met my mom and went shopping @ Somerset before meeting Jean for lunch. Had a great talk with her and she's great company :) Watched Woman in Black with Kelly and Ching Suen on Friday. It's such a great movie with such an exciting plot. So if you haven't watched it, GO AND WATCH IT NOW. It's alittle scary though ): Went to Ching's house after that because we were suppose to do our English project, but no. We ended up watching videos of Courage the Cowardly Dog and movie trailers. Haha! Let's see, Guitar concert was on Saturday. It was kinda nice, and our school is so much better than IJTP. You guys did great! :) Family dinner with the Jacobs' at Alexandra Rd at night to celebrate my dad's birthday! Nothing much happened on Sunday other than the usual going for mass + Breakfast + Cat class + Getting cupcakes from My Village. First day of Term 2 went pretty well, let's hope the next 9 weeks and 4 days would go smoothly. I made new resolutions again, and one of them was that every time I made a new resolution, I would cut my hair to remind myself to keep to it. The other reason why I cut it was because it was getting out of hand. And yes, my hair is kinda screwed up right now. Hahah! Oh well, it'll eventually grow right?  

It's a cold cold cold Wednesday morning. Perfect weather to sleep till 12, but no. Geo-Ad has to be completed by today. I finally came to a conclusion that my 40++ year old mother has a better fashion sense than me. 8 out of 10 times I wake up and look through her wardrobe for clothes before even opening my own. And here I am again, waiting for 10.15 to come so I can leave my house to meet Angela and Gaby, dressed in my mother's clothes. HAHA. But on the bright side, she promised to bring me shopping tomorrow. So yay:)

Hi to whoever still reads this! The past 3 days have been spent meeting up with Angela, Francesca, Sabrina, Gaby, Shivani, Ashleigh, Aliyana and Mr Wu to finish up our Geog Challenge Ad. Oh and Ching Suen too since she came to Gardens to study. And I've been eating and spending a lot of money lately :'( It's only the 2nd day of the week and my allowance for the next 5 days is gone. Hope we can finish everything tomorrow at Gaby's house! Jean's birthday dinner + Bread Run are tomorrow too. I need to find some time to start on my homework or else I'll have to rush over the weekend.  

Sports Day was great! Best one out of the 3 so far. ST. CATHERINE WON 1ST FOR CHEERLEADING AND OVERALL CHAMPION! WHOOOO~ All the hard work from staying back till 6.30 almost everyday paid off! Went for dinner with Evelyn, Kelly, Jean, Ching Suen and Valerie afterwards before heading home! The holidays are here, and I think I have to go back to school on Monday and Tuesday :( But Angela and Gaby would be there too, so I guess it'll be slightly more fun:) 

 I haven't been a good friend lately. And I'm sorry. 

Oh man I'm so tired. We had a half day today since there were good O level results last year, but we had to stay back for practice so It wasn't much of a half day. 2 more days and all of this would be over! And it's also 2 days till the holidays start! So usually for the past couple of years, I've always been getting into trouble during the few weeks before the holidays start. But this year, I'm gonna try my best not to do anything that will upset/anger my parents so I won't be grounded! Hahaha!

Plan for the March holidays: Learn how to let it go.

 This is usually the month where things go pretty well, so let's hope my predictions are true. PTM actually went quite alright. Can't believe I waited for close to an hour just so that Mrs Lim could talk to my dad for about 6mins? And I'm apparently "Quiet in class" and "Have neat handwriting". Haha, everything else was just about how I need to start reading more Chinese books and improve in the subject. It would've been better if Mr Wu was there too :'(  Haha! My dad made friends with Angela and Kelly's dad too (I think?) And I think their dads must be thinking I'm such a creep :'( Really really really really need to improve in my marks or else I'll be a goner!
ONE. MORE. WEEK. TO. SPORTS. DAY. Oh shit.