Today was quite okay! :) Felt really sleepy after recess though! Went to Compass with Angela and ate BK for lunch! Went to Potong Pasir after that to pass Kelly her homework! Hope she's feeling better now! :) Maths tuition soon :( Really looking forward to tomorrow! Although Im not done with my Art and Home Econs :(

THANKS!

Ok, so I promised some people I would specially thank them for what they did!

KRYSTLE:

Heyy Peacock! Thanks so much for being the first one to wish me yesterday! You've been doing that since we were p5! You're damn sweet! Thanks for the present which you and Naomi are refusing to give me till it's completed. HAHA! Anyways, I just wanted to tell you I'm really grateful for all that you've been doing for me for the past 3 years. Thanks for always going to school and going home with me. You're always walking up with me even if you're tired. Thanks for calling me all the time. You're so cute when you suddenly fall asleep! HAHA! Thanks for always listening to me complain about my friends and family. You're always there for me when I needed you! Sorry for always scolding you when you oversleep! I just wanted to let you know I love you very much and you'll always be my peacock! :)

NAOMI:

Heyy Naomi! Thanks for your letter! Its damn funny and I laughed alot when I read it! Thanks for calling me every night even when I tell you Im doing my Maths! Thanks for listening to all my stories. I love listening to all your retarded stories! You're so cute and pretty ok! Thanks for always cheering me up when I'm down and thanks for all the memories that we shared together! We have been best friends since we were p4! That's very very long~ Sorry for always not answering your calls and not always being there! I promise I'll call you more often ok? You're a really really great friend! Love you :)

ANGELA:

Heyy pretty girl! Thanks for the lego, eraser, sweets, scotchtape and all the other things you gave me! I loved your card alot, its really sweet! :) I think It's damn cool that you got ''Mother Nature's monthly gift" on my birthday! Thanks for always being there when I needed you! Thanks for always lending me your pens and your stapler! Thanks for always listening to all my stories and always laughing at them! Thanks for all the "high-fiving", "toilet-ditching", "Pen-lending", "food-stealing", "crazy-smiling" and all the other things we do in class! Sorry I tend to annoy you at times! You're a really great friend and you should be an artist when you grow up! Dont let what others say about you affect the way you live your life! You're young and hip, and you know that! I love you Angela! :)

KELLY:

Heyy Kellyyy! Thanks for the photoframe and the letter! The photoframe looks really good on my table! Its going to be really hard to concentrate while I'm studying! HAHA! You're letter was really really really sweet and I kept laughing when I read it! Thanks for always helping me in my Chinese. Thanks for always calling me at night and always listening to me complain about stuff. Thanks for always being the first to realise when Im having hidden feelings. Thanks for always taking the MRT home with me when we go to Compass, and taking 119 home with me on Wednesdays! Thanks for always being there when I needed a good laugh! Your smile can seriously bright up my day! I'll never forget all the good times we had together! And remember what I told you? When I die, I'll make sure all the letters you gave me would be in my coffin! HAHAH! You're a great friend! And I really appreciate all you've done for me! Love you Kells! :)

BRONTE:

Heyy Sexy! Thanks for your magnet, mighty beans, Hannah Montana magnet, sweets and all the other retarded things! HAHA! Thanks for your banner. Its so cute! We've been friends for 3 years already! We fight like almost everyday about all the stupid things. Thanks for always giving in and always treating me really well. I love our "Tom&Jerry" relationship! We hate each other, but we can't live without one another! Thanks for always paying the GST when we eat at Pizza Hut! Thanks for always writing me notes in class and making me laugh till it hurts! Sorry for always being unreasonable and sacarstic towards you! I hope you know you're a really great friend and I love you very much! :)

CHERLYN:

Heyy Cherlyn! Thanks for the mighty beans and lego! You're card was really cute :) Thanks for always letting me copy your homework in Maths and thanks for always making me laugh in class. I enjoy sitting next to you because you're damn funny and cute! You're always making up jokes and always writing Akon on the back of your foolscap pad. Thanks for always sharing your sweets and chocolates in class. You're super nice! Sorry that I piss you off at times k! Thanks for all the great memories! Love you Cherlyn! :)

IM DONE! :) Hope you guys like it! :)

14~

Today was a fantastic day! Right from the start, till the very end! Really happy when I came to school today morning! Kinda enjoyed Chinese class today since we had to do group work! Went to Long John Sliver's at RM for lunch with Kelly, Angela, Bronte, Cassandra, Pei Shyuen, Vidhya, Jubilee, Charlene and Francesca! They were really nice to have gotten me a cake! :) CCA was quite okay today. Went out for awhile to meet Naomi after her tuition! Waited with Cassandra, Angela and Bronte till 6.30! Kinda happy I managed to go home with Kelly and Krystle! :) Chinese tuition was quite okay today! Really happy that mummy and daddy came home earlier today! Had a Tiramisu cake! :) My grandparents came over for awhile too! :)

I really enjoyed today very much. Thanks everyone for all your gifts, cards, wishes and hugs! :)

Feeling quite happy now! Talked to Naomi and Kelly just now, until my parents came home! I think I ate alot today, since I felt really good after running! Im almost done with my Geog, but I dont think Im going to do my Maths! So tired :(

HELLO! Today was sucha good day! I enjoyed sitting with you in class! You're seriously damn funny and you can make me laugh till my stomach hurts! I think I really need to get a book to write all our similarities down because there's really alot! And you're smart to find out I was having hidden feelings today! Hahah:) Really enjoyed going to IKEA with you just now! Especially when we were walking around looking at all the boxes and food! I think you're really sweet cos' you kept asking me if you could buy me a hot dog! HAHA! :) Hopefully, tomorrow will be another good day! :)

Today was a very very good day! Had a Chem test which was alittle hard. 2.2km during PE made me really tired, but it was kinda worth it! Ran with Angela, Kelly and Bronte! :) Ms Verin didn't come today. Laughed alot in Maths! Went to Sakae Sushi with Angela, Bronte and Kelly. Cherlyn couldn't come :( Enjoyed lunch alot! Went to IKEA with Kelly after that! Had alot of fun walking in rounds and looking at things I used to have when I was yonger. Bought hot dogs before going home! Jacq came over and enjoyed talking to her alot! :) Feel really happy about how I'm spending my last day being 13! :)

I get so paranoid over everything that concerns you. Maybe it's because I'm scared of losing you, to someone better.

Went to Pizza Hut yesterday night for dinner! I ate quite alot! Walked around for awhile before going home. Nonthing much happened today in school. Cherlyn made me laugh alot in Maths and Literature though! Decided not to go to Compass with Angela and Bronte after school since I was very tired and wanted to talk to Krystle. Maths tuition later, hopefully it'll hurry pass! :(

Hey! The past few days have been quite rough for you! Maybe we should just ignore whatever people say about us, and look on the positive side! :) Thanks alot for all your advice the past few days. Especially yesterday night and today morning. I think It's kinda funny how we tell each other to maintain all the time! HAHA! Let's just try to forget about this stupid incident k! :) And we'll go out together soon alright? CHEER UP :)

Firstly, you can go believe whoever you want, I dont care anymore. Call me whatever names you want, I dont care anymore. Ask your friends to come and scold me, I dont care anymore. Break my leg, I dont care anymore Cry till your tears can fill the Atlantic Ocean, I dont care anymore. You can hate me for all you want, I dont care anymore. Why? Because everytime when you needed help, I was there giving you advice, although I didn't want to. And now, I regret wasting my time caring for someone like you.

Woke up at about 8 plus today and was slightly late for church! I managed to forget about all the crap that has been happening for awhile. Mass made me feel alot better :) Catechism was quite fun today since we had to perform a skit. Went for tuition after that. The sole of my shoe tore on my way home, and it was raining :( I think I'm going to Pizza Hut later~

Today was a very very good day! So I decided to be stupid and bathe again and I ended up being alittle late. Ate Wendy's for lunch with Angela, Bronte, Cherlyn and Pei Shyuen. Reached school at about 3 plus. Awards Ceremony started at about 4.15pm! Went around taking pictures and I managed to get quite alot! :) I really enjoyed the guitar and dance performance! :) It ended at about 6 plus. Went to Compass for dinner with Naomi, Kelly, Bronte and Cherlyn. Reached home at about 9 and waited for daddy to pick me up to go to my grandparent's house since it was my grandfather's birthday. There was a mango cake and it was quite good :) Talked to Kelly while watching Incredible Tales! Came home at about 1 plus and fell asleep!

Just finished Maths tuition! I cant believe I managed to wake up at 8.30 on a Saturday! Slept really early yesterday though, but managed to talk to Naomi and Kelly for awhile. Meeting Angela and Cassandra at about 11 plus! Maybe I should go bathe again.

Heyy! I think I really really need to thank you because you were really nice to me today! Thanks for helping me draw during Art and thanks for running faster although you were hurting really badly during PE. Thanks for trying to cheer me up by making me think It wasn't my fault. You're really great! :)

Today's FRIDAY! It was kinda good :) Home Econs passed by really fast! Enjoyed PE today although we had to run 2km. Ran with Angela, Kelly and Pei Shyuen! Stayed in class during recess to complete my art. As usual, Asthetics was really great! :) Bronte's always making me laugh. Went to RM with Cherlyn, Bronte, Kelly, Angela, Cassandra, Pei Shyuen and Vidhya for lunch! CCA was kinda okay today! Stayed till about 6.45 with Angela and Naomi. Piano was quite good too since I didn't have to do theory! That's why I love fridays. Cos' its the only day everything would turn out right! :)

Hey! Ok, I took kinda long thinking about what to write so I hope it'll cheer you up!

You know how I'm usually always very happy when you see me in school? Well, its kinda because I keep all my problems inside and just forget about all the crap that's going on. Its not really easy because sometimes you would really feel like breaking down. But then I'll think about all the good things I've already got, and realise my life is kinda good. And it makes me alot happier. We will meet all kinds of people in life, and we will never be able to please everybody. Do what makes you happy, and don't let others control or make use of you. Sometimes, Its kinda hard cos' you're just trying to be nice, but dont go overboard. No matter what happens, always remember that you have to forgive anyone that hurts so you'll be much happier! Life is really short, so there's no point holding grudges against someone ok? And remember to always think on the positive side of life! Yes, there's always a positive side in every situation! :)

Thanks for EVERYTHING. I like how you make me laugh everyday! You're a really good friend k! :)

Today was kinda okay! Didn't go for breakfast before school. I Managed to understand alittle more in Maths. Hope I'll improve! Went to SubWay with Krystle for lunch and came back to school for awhile since she wanted to talk to Rebecca. Came home at about 4 plus and watched Simpsons for awhile before doing my Art! I still have 3 pages to go~ Talked to Kelly for awhile just now, untill my parents came home! Doing Home Econs now! Hoepfully, I'll finish everything by 12!

TOMORROW'S FRIDAY :)

Went to Cherlyn's house yesterday to do art with Angela, Kelly, Bronte, Cassandra and Vidhya! Her mother cooked chicken briyani and It was really nice! :) Managed to do alittle of my 3rd page before going home! Kelly and I had a hard time finding the bus stop! Didn't have tuition, so I managed to do a few birthday cards!

Its 1.40am. I should be sleeping. There's PE tomorrow and I think we'll be running 2.2km! :( Finally on my 3rd page for art, but I didn't even draw and past pictures yet! :( I think I'll just continue in school in the morning.

Good things fall apart, so that better things can come together

Heyy! I know that you're really really sad right now. Please don't be.

You have to always remember that eventually, everything is going to be alright. You're a really really strong person because you try to be nice to everybody, although some people treat you like crap. Whatever that hurts you now, will teach you something in the future. CHEER UP! :)

Today was kinda good! Ate lunch in school with Angela and Cherlyn! Had Maths tuition in the evening! It started raining really really heavily after that! :)Trying to complete my Art now. I still have 4 pages to go~ Talked to Kelly just now! :) Ok, I should go complete my art now so that I can sleep by 11pm!

I'll have to make this really quick and short! My parents are going to lock the computers soon! So I managed to practice my piano for awhile before dinner! I have 3 more months to make sure I do everything right before my exam! :( Talked to Kelly just now! She's really funny and never fails to make me laugh! Hope she's feeling better now! :) Maybe I should pack my bag and sleep soon! Hopefully, Krystle will be on time tomorrow! :)

Paranoid~

I really really really want to stop being so paranoid over everything.

Im afraid to constantly call or text people, because I'm afraid they'll find it annoying.

Im afraid of hurting people's feelings, although sometimes, they treat me like crap.

Im afraid of being close to someone, because I always think when they know my flaws, they'll treat me differently.

Im afraid of showing how I really feel, because people may think I'm trying to gain sympathy or attention.

Im afraid of eye contact, even with my closest friends.

And Im really afraid, of losing someone really close to me, to someone better.

I don't know when I started being such a paranoid freak. And I really really want to stop. :(

Today was kinda okay! 7am mass in the morning made me really tired but it was worth it. I like going to church, mainly because I get to think about everything that's going on and pray and hope everything would get better :) Breakfast with Bronte was kinda nice. I enjoyed playing Hangman with her cousin! Went to the park with Megan and her for awhile after that! Cathecism was kinda okay today cos' we had sharing session! Went for lunch with Gaby and Sheriann before going for tuition. Met Monique after tuition and went to buy a new file!

School's gonna start tomorrow! Im quite happy cos' I prefer going to school than staying at home :) Well, I hope I'll stop being annoying and concentrate on my work from tomorrow! :)

I need to change.

I really really want to change my bad attitude before I turn 14. I want to stop being afraid of birds especially when they fly towards me. I love paper cranes, but Im just really scared of birds. I want to have a better relationship with my parents and brother. I want to stop being sensitive and paranoid over everything. I want to start concentrating on my studies. I want to be a nicer person. I want to stop letting what people say about me affect the clothes I wear or the way I act. I want to stop talking on the phone so much. I want to stop being rude to my parents. I want to start paying attention in church. I just want to be a better person. Its not going to be easy, but I'll try :)

Went to Red House at East Coast for dinner since it's daddy's birthday! Ben and I bought him boxers! Food was quite good but the black pepper crab made me really really full! Mummy bought cheese cake but maybe I'll eat it tomorrow after I come back from tuition! Going for 7am mass tomorrow! Most probably going for breakfast with Bronte before Cathecism! :) Oh, and sorry Kelly for making you think that what I wrote on my blog was about you! Its seriously not k! :) You're always very very nice to me! :)

Watching Lilo and Stitch just now made me feel alot better. I remember when I was younger, I would always watch it cos' It never failed to bright up my day!

I think I'm just over-reacting and being sensitive. So I deleted my previous post! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY! :)

Heyy Daddy! Happy 42nd Birthday! May God bless you and keep you safe in all that you do!

I just wanted to thank you for always being the best! You're sucha great father and I really hope you know that! Thanks for always buying me MacDonald's on saturday mornings! Thanks for always buying me chocolates when you go to Cold Storage. Thanks for always being the first in the family to realise when I'm upset or when something's bothering me. Thanks for always praising me when I do something good. Thanks for always teaching me about different kinds of animals when we watch Animal Planet on saturday afternoons. Thanks for waking me up when I fall asleep in church. Thanks for always scolding Ben when he annoys me. Thanks for always buying me new books. Thanks for always cheering me up when I'm down. Thanks for always letting me listen to 987 although you prefer 95.

Im sorry for not always being a good daughter. Im sorry that I always sneak out. Im sorry that Im always talking on the phone after 10 although you don't like it. Im sorry that Im always rude to you. Im sorry that I always argue with you so I can get my way. Im sorry for always pretending to fall asleep so that I won't have to fold the clothes. Im sorry that I don't do well in my studies. Im sorry that I've hurt you so many times.

You're a really really good father, but sometimes I dont realise that. I know that you don't allow me to do certain things because you love me. Although we have our daily ups and downs, I hope you'll always know that no matter what, I'll love you very much cos' you're my dad! :)

Have a great day! :)

Wasted Fridays

Other than being a pig, I didn't really do much today. I didn't practice my piano, neither did I do my art. I just blogged, slept, and watched Glee. This is one disadvantage of trying to complete all your holiday homework before the weekend, you won't have much to do before school reopens. Ben's showing me stupid videos of Rebecca Black on Youtube! HAHA! Most probably going to Krystle's house tomorrow afternoon and maybe dinner at Peach Garden since It's daddy's birthday! :)

Whenever I see a pretty girl, I feel so intimidated. It’s like whenever I think I look decent or okay, I come across a pretty girl in a picture or a pretty friend and I just immediately fall into the assumption that I would never measure up to that kind of “pretty.” It’s like I can never be enough because there will always be someone prettier and better.

Sometimes, I can be sucha pig.

Yesterday night, I told myself I'll wake up early to complete my art! As usual, It didn't happen. I didn't manage to sleep early cos' Krystle called. Kinda enjoy talking to her since she's always making me laugh! Hope she's feeling better now! So I woke up at 10 plus and watched American Idol for awhile before starting to clean my room! :) It's slightly neater now! There's no piano today :( Maybe I'll go practice for awhile later! I feel so lazy to do my art! I'll probably do it tonight after watching Glee!

Im Doneee~

Today was slightly better than yesterday! :) Managed to complete Maths, Bio, and Lit! Still have alittle of Home Econs and Art! I can finally clean my room tomorrow!! :) Still finding for 1 more recipe for my Home Econs! Hopefully I'll find something good and easy to make! Ben said I could only get back my phone in 3 to 5 working days! :( Had some time to start reading my new book, Keeping Faith. Its quite interesting! :) I think I should start reading more books! Talking to Kelly now! She's telling me murder stories! So creepy! :( I always learn something new when I talk to her! Tomorrow's Friday! And although there's no school, I have a feeling it'll still be a very good day! Kk, Im gonna go sleep now! Planning to wake up early to do my art! Nights! :)

I'm trying to complete all my school homework by today or tomorrow. So that I can do my art and clean my room during the weekend. There's still Maths, Bio and Lit to do :( Ben went to Vivo to fix my phone, and I'm not used to the spare phone. Hopefully, I'll be able to get it back by Sunday! :)

Maths at 8 today! Hardly understood what Ms Verin was talking about. Went to KFC for breakfast with Angela, Cherlyn, Kelly and Pei Shyuen. Had to go buy colour pencils and borrow cook books after that. Came home at about 11 plus and watched How I met your Mother. I felt really tired after that so I slept till 4. Woke up and realised Dylan was here. Ben ordered pizza so I ate that for lunch! Chinese tuition at 8! :( Maybe I should start on my homework tonight!

Falling to pieces~

It's 4.15. I've been awake since 2.30. I can't go back to sleep, maybe its just because I have alot of things on my mind. Managed to talk to Krystle for awhile just now, hopefully I'll be able to go to her house on Thursday! Crap, I'm so tired but I just can't fall asleep. My mother's going to kill me if she wakes up and find me blogging in the middle of the night. Making cards now! Atleast that will keep me awake till 6.30! Perhaps I should go do my art soon! Urgh, there's Maths tomorrow.

What big eyes you have~

Today was sucha long day! But It was quite good! Met Kelly at Potong Pasir at about 10.20 before meeting Angela, Cassandra, Bronte, Cherlyn, Pei Shyuen and Vidyha at Sengkang. Went to Vivo City and watched Red Riding Hood. The movie was quite nice and I really enjoyed it! :) Went to Food Republic after that. Tripped and fell there. After lunch, we went to ToysRus! At about 2.45, we went to Plaza Sing! Bronte refused to buy me a book, but she could buy Cassandra a bear! :( HAHA! Reached home at about 5.30 and slept for awhile before going for tuition. Just talked to Kelly and hope she's alright now! :)

Cos' that's life. It's not as easy as you thought it might be.

Since I woke up really early today, I had quite alot of time to think about everything that's happening. Sometimes, it really hurts when I see the people I'm close to break down. Some of them are just really stressed, while others just hate life. It's really not easy to always think on the positive side of life. And it's really hard to talk to someone about your problems, you're sometimes just not sure if you can trust them or not. Trying to smile all the time, but deep down you're hurting is not any easier. But sometimes, you really have to think about the people around you. You have to realise that everyone is fighting their own war, so you should seriously be nice to everyone around you. But its hard, its really hard. Cos' you'll meet people who treat you like crap, and you have to treat them like a king. There's nonthing wrong with keeping everything inside, and just waiting till the night to talk to someone who would really really care to listen. Yesterday, I was very angry so I said that life was a bitch and that I hated my life. I take it back. Cos' I realised that I'm not the only one with problems, everyone has them. So next time, before I say FML, maybe I'll think about all the other people, who's suffering out there, and realise that my life is actually quite good!

HI(: Went to the doctor yesterday night to check my throat! Came home at about 9 plus and talked to Naomi for awhile! Did some of my art before Kelly called me. My parents came home at about 10 and I tried to ask them for permission to let me go out today! I told them that they had to give me the benefit of an adult and they had to trust me to know that I'm responsible and won't do anything stupid. They were being really unreasonable, so they said NO. I cried cos' I was really really angry. So I went to sleep and tried to forget everything. Today morning, my mother woke me up at 5.30 to tell me my dad allowed me to go! :) Thanks Cherlyn and Cassandra for making me feel better yesterday night! And thanks Kelly for giving me advice on how to ask my parents for permission! I'm gonna have to bathe soon! :)

Just came home from school! English today passed really fast, maybe it's because Mrs Tan was really funny and high today. She gave us sweets and chocolates! :) Went to Compass for lunch with Angela, Cherlyn, Cassandra, Ferreri, Vidhya, Pei Shyuen and Ashleigh. Tuition at 4! I think Chrystal's gonna come over later to swim or something! I should probably go finish my homework or my mother won't allow me to go out tomorrow. And I still have to write Naomi's letter! Kk, Im gonna go watch Simpsons now! :)

Weekend~

Yesterday night, I went for dinner with Uncle Voo and Aunty Jean! There was a bird shop nearby and there were hundreds of birds! It was really really cool but also very noisy and smelly! The birds there were really really cute! :) Dinner was quite good! Today was sucha hot day! Woke up at about 10 today and had to go to church! Felt alot better after going for mass! :) Went to Plaza Singapura and Marina Square with my mother and grandmother! Came home at about 7 plus and did some Maths and Art. Just talked to Kelly. Talking to her always brights up my day!

My mother has been teaching me how to speak hokkien for the past few days! HAHA! :) There's school tomorrow :( Kk, going to finish my art now!

Had a really really nice talk with Kelly yesterday night! Hope she feels better now! :) My parents came home at about 10 plus and gave me my birthday present! Abit early though, but maybe it's becaue I won't be seeing my dad much till April. Talked to Krystle till about 1 plus before she fell asleep! Woke up at about 9 plus and tried to complete my tution homework before 10am! Went to buy Kway Teow for lunch! I think I'm going to Novena later! :)

SPORTS DAY' 11

Today was Sports Day! It was quite fun :) We had mass in the morning because it was also Feast Day! Went to Hougang Mall with Cassandra, Angela, Kelly, Bronte, Monique, Vidhya and Ashleigh. We reached Hougang Statdium at about 11 plus. Cheerleading was quite nice! Krystle was the mascot for St. Helen. She looked so adorable! :) ST. CATHERINE WON CHAMPION HOUSE! Came home at about 6 plus and had piano at 7pm! I'm so tired...

:)

Yesterday was Wednesday and nonthing much happened in school. Stayed back for CCA. Left school at about 6.45pm with Bronte and Angela. I had to go to SFX for Ash Wednesday mass. Reached about 7.50pm. After mass, went to eat supper with Ben, Iris and Eliza. We went to R.K. to eat prata! :) Came home at about 10.30!

Woke up at 6am today! Met Cherlyn and walked to school to meet Kelly, Angela, Cassandra and Bronte! Went to Macs for breakfast! I felt like vomiting after that :( Stayed back after school to do art! Went home with Monique and Francesca. I'm so tired, but I have to practice my piano soon! :(

Tomorrow's sports day! Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day! :)

Today was a really really tiring day! I feel like sleeping right now :(

Anyways, I woke up at 6.30am and hurry called Krystle. We managed to reach school by 7.25am! PE was horrible cos' we had to run 2km. Bio was quite okay today! We had our monitor investiture during assembly! :) After school, Anglea, Bronte, Cassandra, Kelly, Cherlyn, Pei Shyuen, Ashleigh, and I went to Pizza Hut! After lunch, we went to Popular and spent alot of time there.