Paranoid~

I really really really want to stop being so paranoid over everything.

Im afraid to constantly call or text people, because I'm afraid they'll find it annoying.

Im afraid of hurting people's feelings, although sometimes, they treat me like crap.

Im afraid of being close to someone, because I always think when they know my flaws, they'll treat me differently.

Im afraid of showing how I really feel, because people may think I'm trying to gain sympathy or attention.

Im afraid of eye contact, even with my closest friends.

And Im really afraid, of losing someone really close to me, to someone better.

I don't know when I started being such a paranoid freak. And I really really want to stop. :(